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Friday, May 6th, 2005
8:29 am	Home alone in Midland I'm sitting in Midland right now waiting for someone, anyone, preferably not Henrietta, to get here. Henrietta is our ghost. I am here alone. It's strange, I have never been here alone before. It's really quiet. I might run out to my car and grab a cd or 2. Kelly and Kristen are probably adjusting time since it's been a really long week. So, here I sit. Tracy left me with a project, but I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing with it. Tracy, you are on crack. Right, I definately need some music. Much better. Something's got to break you doown... Right, so after today, I am officially done. It's a strange feeling, let me tell you. Well, that's really all I have to say about that. Nothing really to tell. My aunt sent me flowers and money and a book for graduation. I got them yesterday. I love flowers. I need to clean my room so they aren't just sitting randomly in the middle of my desk. Actually, maybe I should start packing. Hmmmm....Well, as I sit here and babble, I suppose I should try to figure out what the hell I'm supposed to be doing. Stefanie told me to take a nap in the playroom. That would be funny. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Drinking Champange from a Paper Cup - Death Cab (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 26th, 2005
6:23 pm	i got an interview! i got an interview!!!!!! i got an interview!!!!!!!! Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: notta notta nothin (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
7:11 pm	fuck balls. dammit. shit damn fuck crap bloody hell. man, i suck at life. enter one big fat ass kick here. fuck. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
10:13 pm	My latest attempt at paper writing... Youth Suicide Risk and Preventive Interventions: A Review of the Past 10 Years by Gould et. al. discusses risk factors for suicide and interventions used throughout the past ten years. My legs are very very very dry and because they are so dry, they got razor burned. Now they sting from the combination of dry skin and lotion. Man, I used some heavy duty lotion; some nice cocoa butter. Mmmm. My feet are very happy though. That is a good thing for they have been a little upset lately. I will nurse them back to health and happiness. I have writer’s block like whoa right now. Therefore, I am writing nonsense until something comes to me. I need to remember to erase the nonsensical garble before I email it to Dr. Heath. Hmmmm…replace, retract….responsibility…I’m still waiting for you to get over this. I’m still waiting for you to get over this. Current Mood: nonsensical Current Music: get up kids (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
10:02 pm	blargh. death is upon me. Current Mood: sick (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 24th, 2004
11:28 am	Woop! Woop! I got my grades today and I just about jumped out of my seat. HEV 302: A PSY 310: A SPE 550: A HEV 308: B- HEV 319: A- HST 326: B- Overall: 3.51 Huzzah!! I rock. I was not expecting a B in either 326 or 308. In other news, break has been going well so far. Working a lot. I get to go to MD/WV for Christmas. It has been a very long time since I've spent Christmas down there. The last couple of years, we've been here. I'm excited. And, we are spending Christmas day with Daddy's side of the family. We usually go to Grammy and PopPop's first. I'm happy to actually have Christmas with the Madle's. It's been a long time. I am being summonned. Happy Holidays! Current Mood: ecstatic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 15th, 2004
7:48 pm	I think I am neurotic. Really, I do. I always thought maybe I could be, but now I'm pretty positive. Damn the psych classes. I was sitting in class today and we were learning about neuroticism and I thought to myself. Man alive, Lauren, you're neurotic! There are two types of neuroticism. The first one is called intellecualization. Basically, it is when you think about wishes in formal, unfeeling ters but don't act on them. The second type is displacement. That's when you direct the feeling on someone other than the real source. I think I'm the first one, I don't really displace all that much. But, whoa whoa whoa! Does that not describe me??? I think it does. So there we have it, I'm neurotic. Next time I freak out about some random, insignificant thing, we know why. It's the neuroticism. Okay, I think that is all. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: tv downstairs (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
12:08 pm	fuckass number 3...argh right... he is stupid. how ya gonna go and be late for an exam??? i mean honestly. and i was totally going to do it too. shan even walked with me to kaya. right..a little background...there is a boy. his name is steve. i was going to talk to him today and, AND i bought him hot cocoa! i actually did it! and what happens?? he is late. and i cant do anything cuz there is a test and it had started. silence had overtaken the room with the only sound being that of calculator presses and writing pencils. maybe a few tapping fingers of concentration. i was actually going to do it and he fucked it up. this is why he is now dubbed fuckass number 3. argh. argh. argh. this was not on me this time. i did not chicken out. no, not i. i did not. fuck balls. he owes me a cocoa. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: whatever shan is playing in her room.... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
1:10 pm	I have 112 more dollars than I thought I did!!! My mom went into Dusty's and I apparently had one more paycheck there. Yay for Pat Hunter. I heart her. Yay for money. I'm not quite as broke as I thought. I'm still broke, but not as broke. This is joy and merriment for sure. That is all. I am happy. Current Mood: delighted (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
12:28 pm	tee hee tee hee hee Camp LJ!! by i_am_chopsticks Username Camp Director camp_dinger Asst. Camp Director thebeaker Program Director konstantine1111 Arts & Crafts Dir. runningredgoat Cook calimylove First to kill a camper holland_amanda Everyone's Favorite Counselor spoon_chh Favorite Camper fuzziepeach Number of Angry Parents 2,949 Complaints 225,673 Lawsuit Pay-Off $423,240,279,686 Quiz created with MemeGen! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:05 pm	the internet has finally arrived!!!!! i am a happy camper now. huzzah! that is all. (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 18th, 2004
10:40 pm	A brief update about my ever so exciting life.... In the words of Shannon...I am still alive. Let's see...what has been going on with Lauren lately??? I think a bullet point extravaganza is in order. -My major life decision of the moment: I am taking a year off when I graduate, moving to Virginia to live with my aunt while I get in state residency, save up money for the paying of school, etc. etc. I am quite excited about it. I takes a huge weight of my shoulders. So, yay. I have an idea about what I'm doing in life. -Sometimes my parents (mom) and grandparents (Grammy) share way too much information that I really really really do NOT need to know. Insert my shudder here. -I am home this weekend to visit with my Grammy and Poppop. I love them. -For some reason, I have become addicted to the Tony Danza Show. I don't know why, but I really like it. I have also been watching Regis and Kelly in the mornings. -Watching Miss America with the grandparents is kind of entertaining. Their comments about certain aspects...hmmm -I finally made out with a boy. Yay for that. -Miss Alabama is wearing a cute outfit. -Oh, Ashes, Secret Boyfriend Josh has icy blue eyes. Oooooh Secret Boyfriend Josh, can we please make out all the time?? However, you know in order for that to happen, you need to come to class and stop talking to Stupid Girl. I veto you not doing that. -I also want to make out with Beautiful Beautiful Man from my theory class. Oh baby oh baby. -Classes are good. They will be a lot of work, lots of projects this semester, but hey, whatcha gonna do? I like them so far. Well, except for my theory class. Boo to theory, boo I say. -I get to go on a way fun trip with my aunt for my birthday. Yay for fun vacations. I think that pretty much covers it. Nothing too exciting going on in my life as per usual. Daddy's battery is about to die. I should go. Bye all. Current Music: Mom singing My Girl (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 13th, 2004
1:11 pm	Wow. It has been a way way long time since I have updated. Well..the summer is over. It was a good summer, I think. I know I had a good time, but now it is time to reenter the real world. I don't know if I'm ready for that. I liked being in my own little camp world. At camp, the stresses of the real world just seem to go away. Not to say that I didn't have moments of real world stress, but there wasn't time to dwell on them. They just go away as soon as you get back into another activity or back with your girls. The camp world is fabulous that way. But, now I'm back. I've been home for a couple of days now. Wednesday, I did absolutely nothing. I went out to lunch with my mom and then I slept...a LOT. Yesterday, I unpacked and cleaned my room so that i can pack for school. My brother has been strangely nice to me. He actually thanked me for taking him to football yesterday and today he told me I am nice because I bought him a drink from Beaner's. Odd. That rarely happens. School starts soon. I'm ready for it. I'm way excited. I love new semesters. The new people, the new routines, the new school supplies...I love school shopping. I'm a dork, I know, but I love it. Anyways, I think that is all. Current Mood: random Current Music: tv (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 1st, 2004
5:31 pm	sitting in the computer lab while shannon does some jazz with the macs. i dont like macs. i started out on the mac so i could sit next to shannon, but i couldn't find the internet, so.... i moved to the ever so friendly PC. PCs are wonderful and user friendly. Macs are evil and eat my A drive. but, enough of that. we just got back from bennigan's. it was lovely. i have gotten nothing accomplished today. i think it has a large part to do with the fact that i am in denial like whoa about finals. i figure, if i don't do anything about it, they will go away. psh, i wish. i think i'm in denial about a few things lately, but i've been fighting with every fiber in my body not to let that shine through and win. like i said to dar last night, i'm a tough kid, i can win. i will win. i have to win. winning is good. hmmmm... shan is done. hazzah. i hope it worked. yay. anywho...off we go. adios. Current Mood: denial like whoa (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 29th, 2004
12:13 pm	do do do...i'm sitting here waiting for dr. vanhorn's office hours to talk about research experience which i need. man oh man, i have so much to do. so much to do! so much to do! mental list...GREs, research, work experience, letters of recommendation...anything else? i dont know. i don't want to think about that. too much to do! speaking of grad school and much to do, last night i had a strange dream. i dreamt that i got a B in george's class last sememster (i got an A for the record) and i went to see him about writing a letter of recommendation for grad school. he said no because of the B and he started yelling at me about how horrible Bs are. how weird is that? stupid stress dreams. he's in his office right now and i thought about informing him of this, but he's a busy busy man and i decided not to. maybe, i'll shoot him an email. george! you yelled at me!! lol. anyways, that is all. weird dreams and boredom. whoa, i just got really tired. Current Mood: geeky Current Music: humming in the computer lab (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
11:06 pm	And, here we go... I should be studying, but as per usual, I am not. I am so sick of this class, there is no motivation. I've been trying to study for the exam tomorrow, but I've been stuck on Pavlov for 2 days. I don't care about fucking Pavlov and his fucking unconditioned stimulus and conditioned responses. I don't care about the Pavlovian dog or the other people who I should know their names and theories, but don't. Why? Because, you guessed it, I don't care. I don't care about Skinner and his stupid rats and whatever he did. Again, I should know this, but I dont. I have had this in several psych classes cuz well, it is fairly well known and important psychological advances. And, I need to do fairly well on this test because I'm convinced that I sucked at life with the term paper. I'm sure I failed. Stupid Freud. I should have known not to do Freud. His theory is FAR too complicated with his stupid dream theory and unconscious and consciousness. Stupid Oedipus complex and penis envy. I never envied the penis. In fact, I've always thought they were gross and had a certain fear of the penis. The fucking Canadian didn't help with that little complex of mine. Stupid Canadians. Aaah Ahhh, oh man! oh man! mental picture! mental picture!!! make it go away!!!! Fuck me. I think I spelled Freud wrong. Shouldn't I know how to spell it at least? I know his birthday, May 6, 1856. Oh, man alive, I've gone off the deep end. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done with Skinner and I'm done with this class and I'm done with school. Hell, I'm done with life. Yes, life. Life is stupid. I'm ready. Ready to go to California and become a beach bum, under the boardwalk and I'll sing 'Under the boardwalk we'll be havin some fun....under the boardwalk, under the sun...dodododo' however it goes. And, breathe. Current Mood: spazzed Current Music: tv in other room (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 28th, 2004
7:36 pm	Oooops create your own personalized map of the USA or write about it on the open travel guide Current Mood: sheepish (1 Comment |Comment on this)
7:08 pm	watch out kiddies, the obsession grows.... I just entered in the Ultimate Friends Fan Sweepstakes! heee hee heee! I so nailed the trivia question. If I get it right I could win the dvd set seasons 1-6. And, the grand prize is a trip to LA with five of my friends. FIVE!!!! Granted the likelihood of me actually winning the grand prize is slim to none, but it's exciting to think about. Oh, this makes me so happy. I am truly going to miss my Thursday night Friends session, but I will have them on dvd for whenever my little heart desires to watch them. Ok, that is all. hee hee hee.. Current Mood: dorky Current Music: notta...silence fills the apartment (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
7:47 pm	daddy made my day today. yes, yes he did. i will tell you why. he informed me that i will actually be making money off my taxes this year. for, i rarely do. and, i'm getting quite a bit. $200! wow! and, how i so desperately need el moneyo. well, yes, that is why my dad rocks today. that is all. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: notta (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
7:56 pm	What?!? hehehehe this makes me laugh... You are an Enzo Ferrari. Which Car Are You? brought to you by Quizilla yeah..me...not so much (Comment on this)